I am ALWAYS late. Starting my own blog to make a brand for myself. Totally late. I have to have some golden words to make it now. What else can I do? I am a single mom on disability and an Associates degree. My ex-husband, who shall always remain nameless is $90,000 behind in child support and somehow the state of Missouri gave him a discount. He should be $94,000 behind. No one can tell me how and why that happened. Every time I ask, I am told, “No, you still have a balance.” Why can’t that happen to my credit card bill. The discount happened several years ago, back when the balance was $68,000. I guess that’s the cost of having him out of our lives. What else is it costing? My son, has me and I try to fill the shoes of a father. I coached his baseball and basketball teams. Taught him how to throw a ball and slide when stealing a base.
I used to feel bad that he didn’t have a dad. I filled the void with things. So many things. Every gaming console made, we had it. Switch, Wii, xbox, ps4, and now we have a ps5. He maybe plays 5x a year. It took me a long time to realize that he doesn’t need the stuff. He needed me, but I was always working. All of that changed in 2021, when I had to stop working and eventually moved back in with my mother. I was approved for disability in 2023. I was in immense pain anytime I moved. My chronic veinous insufficiency was creating ulcers on my ankles. Which turned into nonhealing wounds for 3.5 years. If you’ve ever had a cardboard cut or big paper cut, then you know the pain I felt. But this was crazy, constant pain, not over in an instant like a papercut. Cranberries “linger” comes to mind and that’s what I was thinking, do you have to make it linger.
Then it got infected and the infection moved up my leg to my gut, and my body created a sack to contain the infection. I spent almost a week in the hospital after they found the 9x4x2 cm mass. Our bodies are incredible. I was getting blood work weekly and nothing indicated infection. I woke up one day unable to move without doubling over in pain. Thinking it was my appendix, I had my brother drive me to the ER. After the xrays, they found the mass and tried the least invasive way. Inserting a drain tube laparoscopically and monitoring the effects. My bloodwork started off off the charts, totally different from 5 days before. The following day after getting a drain tube inserted, my bloodwork was back to normal. I went home with tube and bag that I had to drain and flush twice a day. That stuff smelled, bad.
I say all this because I have had a lot of time to think. I even tried to take classes online, but I fell asleep every time I went to read the assignments. I even tried skipping the reading part and just answering the questions, but that, too, put me to sleep. So this old dog can’t learn any new tricks, but I can share all the old tricks that I have learned. And some of the crazy experiences that I have had. Along with the lessons that I have learned.
Simply Sanely
Here’s a quick tip…. If a Major League Baseball player asks you to go out on a date, just say yes. You can always excuse yourself if it gets awkward or if he gets handsy. The idiot that I am, said NO. The look on his face was priceless, and it turns out that he has a kid that is the exact age of how long ago it was when he asked me out. I had my suspicions that I would be the side piece, and everyone thought I was crazy for not getting the free meal. Would it have actually been free, though? What am I saying? It’s free, as long as you make it free. So, say yes and make it free.